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Banishing the Boogieman

October 15, 2014 by Elizabeth Leave a Comment

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After reading my last blog, My Son Would Have Turned 30 Today, several blog readers sent private messages to me sharing their struggles with their children who have depression or other brain chemistry imbalances. I’m honored when someone trusts me enough to share personal struggles.  It’s tough for a parent to watch their child that they love more than life itself suffer, self-medicate, get in trouble with the law, or self-destruct in some other way.

After Jay’s suicide, I received an overwhelming amount of love and support from my family, my church family, friends, colleagues from the district I worked in, and from colleagues from the school where I taught the previous school year. I received some type of sympathy message via phone call, email, card, letter, or flowers every day for a full year after Jay died.  It is such a blessing to be a recipient of unconditional love.  It’s not the norm for the parent of a school shooter.  Most go into hiding due to the negative media attention and hostility from individuals.

Since Jay’s death was so public, our family’s private life became transparent. There were camera crews covering the events as they unfolded at the school.  They were at my son’s funeral filming our family and other mourners.  My life and my son’s death were food for ratings-hungry media outlets.  Our family was not perfect by any means.  This became clear to anyone who watched or read the news.

Others knowing my frailties and failures liberate me. It was exhausting to pretend I had a perfect life, perfect marriage, and perfect children.  Having the worst happen in public allowed me to see the worst in people and survive.  Consequently, I learned that I was stronger than public ridicule, betrayal, and my own guilt.  I also learned how to forgive in a way I never thought possible.

Once my private pain became public, friends, acquaintances, and sometimes complete strangers felt it was okay to share their very personal problems with me. My life’s events made me seem human and vulnerable.  Like them, I had and still have personal heartaches and struggles.  Some individuals shared that they were in unhappy marriages.  Others confided their worries about their children’s, addictions, legal issues, suicide attempts, depression, or episodes of domestic abuse.  It’s remarkable how those who seem to have charmed lives have more going on than one can see by looking from the outside.

I learned that no one has a perfect life. Marriage partners have conflicts and sometimes divorce.  Families sometimes have job or financial difficulties.  Most families have members with addictions, brain chemistry imbalances, eating disorders, health issues, or simply a child who is more difficult to rear than the others.  Those who go to the greatest lengths to hide life’s imperfections typically have the most to hide.  They are also the ones who hurt the most.

People keep secrets because of guilt and shame. Hiding the secret gives it power.  It is like the boogieman that hides in a child’s closet or under the bed.  He is unknown and unexamined.  He grows in the dark spaces of one’s mind and disappears in the light.  Likewise, guilt and shame gain power in secrecy and lose their power when one turns on the light by sharing the secret with the right person or people.

At one time, polite society members did not talk about certain illnesses, such as breast cancer openly. As a result, women needlessly died from inability to recognize the symptoms or from fear of seeking treatment due to embarrassment or shame.  Mental illness and/or addictions are still taboo subjects.  Those who are sick suffer more than necessary because they are afraid of the sigma of mental illness.  When the pain is too much to bear, some take their own lives.  It is time for discussions about mental health to become as ordinary as discussions about any other illness.  The stigma, shame, fear, and guilt diminish in the light of frank discussions.

What do you think? When is it okay to ask to help?  What should remain private?  

Boots, Shoes, and Peace

September 18, 2013 by Elizabeth 2 Comments

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The media bombards us with images of violence.  This week it is a mass shooting in Washington’s Navy Yard.  Another case of guns and mental illness.  It seems bad news and fear mongering attracts viewers and sells advertising.  A simple solution is to turn off the news.  However, there are television monitors in many public places, physicians’ waiting rooms, salons, airports, fast food restaurants.  We cannot escape the images.  Worst yet, our children cannot escape the deluge of violence and uncertainty.  As educators, we have no control of our students’ viewing habits beyond our classroom.  Some of our children experience violence in their homes or neighborhoods.  Our children come to us with unspoken anxiety, sometimes expressed in aggressive, passive, or self-destructive behavior.

An Italian physician, Maria Montessori (1870-1952) dealt with children in war-ravished Italy at the turn of the last century.  In many ways, the children who attended her schools were much like modern American children.  They witnessed violence and lived in an uncertain world.  Dr. Montessori required children to remove their boots before entering the classroom and put on slippers.  This was an outward symbol to leave behind the chaos of the outside world and enter a peaceful place.

I wonder what symbols you have that home or school is a peaceful place.  Children may have rituals that help transition from outside to home, much like Mr. Rogers removing his jacket and putting on a sweater.  At home, you may ban the news, ask friends and family to remove shoes, change into leisure clothing or shoes.  The ride home in the car can be a time to leave behind daily worries.

Many secondary schools ban gang symbols, certain type of clothing, or colors designating a safe space.  Some schools in colder climates require a change from snow boots to stocking feet.  Peaceful classroom teachers look for ways to help students transition, which may be outward signs such as boots to slippers or something more subtle, such as taking a few minutes to journal, observe silence, or take a few deep breaths.

Please take a few moments to share what you do to help students or your own personal children leave behind the chaos and enter a peaceful space.

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